Get Together At Klang^

I'm not feeling well since yesterday..Actually i dun wish to go Klang as i'm not feeling well but i alr promised my colleagues to take dinner together at Klang so i have to make it..7 of us went and we started off to Klang from my office around 1830 and reached there at bout 2100..It's terrible cos we're stucking in the bloddy traffic jam..We took 2 and a half hour to reach there..I jus sat on the car and chit chat with my colleague while smoked..I'd sore throat, flu, headache and my nose is stucked so i have to use my mouth to breathe..So poor thing right?My colleagues ordered 8 dishes included fish, crab, vegetable, prawn, squid and etc..Let me judged all the dishes..Fish consider OK, Crab GOOD, Prawn NOT OK, Vegetables GOOD and Squid NOT OK..The most one thing that i loved is the seaside view..I felt so relaxing and enjoy myself when i was makan-ing seafoods..The songs so cool and the envorinment so romantic made things so happening..Although all the dishes not consider perfect but at least the enviroment and the seaside view made us fell satisfied..We drank beer as to relax ourselves and release tension as we're facing a lot of pressure in our job..We're like prisoners jus release from prison..Keep on eating and eating..Non stop..But it's very enjoyful..

After we finished all the foods, we continue with our beer..We're damn full and felt like vomit..I never tried to eat this full before..Wow..Feel so suffering and all of us stand up to digest our foods..We carried on with few games as we needed to clear all the foods on the table cos we dun want to waste it..Loser either choose to drink half glass of beer or foods..We made noises til other tables were laughing and felt happy for us..We took photo as commemorative..It's not easy to get to the destination as night time is too dark on the roadside..I didn't feel regret joining them for dinner at Klang although i'm not feeling well, cos yesterday i learnt something very important..Although we knew each other only for few months but we still can enjoy ourselves like we're knowing for few years..Sometimes our old old friends may not able to give us this kind of happiness..Communication between human is very important..When we're standing in the same tracks or right tracks then we can get along..Or may be the other way around..So try to involve urself into the society cos i'm sure that u'll get happiness from them..I was thinking want to organize another gathering but still under process..Hopefully this time will be more person take part..Stay Cool..~Cheer vs Peace~

BeTraYaL..

Betrayer..Wat do u mean by betrayer?People betrayed me and i had a really hard time until i was knocked down..Well, i been betrayed by human until me myself also dunno how to count on the number..I ever tried love betrayed, friend betrayed or even customers betrayed..It was really hurted when the first i'd been betrayed by someone that i deeply love..I couldn't express how was my feeling at the moment but i know that's horrible..I told myself to calm down and relax my mind as i thought everything will be fine sooner..The pain jus like the knife sticking through my heart..Unbelieveable..I taught myself a good lesson that i can't trust someone easily..I won't judge a person from the outlook as i not really know their inner part..May be their outlook not looking good but they really have a good inner part or may be the other way around..

I think talking to people is important..I gain some experiences from this so i'll be more caution on my words towards someone that i not known well to prevent being sticking by another sharp knife again..Hopefully i won't be betray again and again..It's not easy to cure the pain but to give myself sometimes..I have to do it in order to light up my world once again..I alr get used to it by now so i'll jus take it easy cos i know that human ignorance is always betrayed by their suspicions and prejudices..In this cruel world, either the winner stay (SURVIVE) or the loser leave (HELL)..~Peace & Cheer always~

VaLenTiNe

If There Were No Words
No Way To Speak
I Would Still Hear You
If There Were No Tears
No Way To Feel Inside
I'd Still Feel For You

And Even If The Sun Refused To Shine
Even If Romance Ran Out Of Rhyme
You Would Still Have My Heart Until The End Of Time
You're All I Need, MY LOVE, MY VALENTINE

All Of My Life
I Have Been Waiting For
All You Give To Me
You've Opened My Eyes
And Showed Me How To Love Unselfishly

I've Dreamed Of This A Thousand Times Before
But In My Dreams I Couldn't Love You More
I Will Give You My Heart Until The End Of Time..
You're All I Need, MY LOVE, MY VALENTINE

And Even If The Sun Refused To Shine
Even If Romance Ran Out Of Rhyme
You Would Still Have My Heart Until The End Of Time
'Cause All I Need Is You, My Valentine
You're All I Need, MY LOVE, MY VALENTINE

I want to dedicate this song to someone that i ever loved deeply..If those that knew me well, they might know who is that secret person..Well, it's alr a past tense and sometimes i jus unintentionelly think of the secret person..That's jus a memories that i kept it in my hardisk few years back..I didn't mean anything so pls dun get me wrong k..Yeah..

My Day^

Time passing so fast day by day..It 's the 2nd week of December and we're going to celebrate Christmas by next Thursday..Well, i was thinking what i'm going to do and where i want to go during Christmas Eve?Go clubbing or jus stay at home watching movie & online?I got no idea too..If someone date me, may be i'll consider..Haha..I fell bored and tired to hang out everyday & i need times to take a long rest and a long sleep..How do i wish if i can jus sleep the whole day without doing anything with my empty mind..No more worries, no feeling nervous or no troublesomes at all..It's such a wonderful and perfect life..

Time goes by everyday and every week..Every once in a while we feel like time goes by so fast and it gets so sad knowing that as time goes by, things changed and we changed..Sometimes we'd do anything to go back to the safer times..When days past we're scared & scared of what the future holds us & terrified that we won't survive the real world..As time goes by, we're getting older & older and the days become shorter..We will never know what kind of problems tmr will bring us..Will it bring any at all or a bunch of problems?Since we're getting older and we think more each day..We look so far into the future that we can picture birthdays, weddings and funerals..It's all so depressing us until we'll never know how our life will turn out..

Sometimes i may think of positive way and sometimes may not..We still have a small chance if we think of the positive way but totally out of chance if we're thinking the other way around..I wont blame myself for thinking that way as i'm staying alone in this bloody hell house so do u guys?I did tried to put my mind aside and trying to be a dull and moron gal..But sometimes i did it.. It's feel like floating in the air and so enjoyful @ the feeling like jus release from jail..No more worries, no troublesomes or nervous feeling and only HAPPINESS will appear in my world..It's wonderful..Yeah..Do u agree with this?"No Pain No Gain"..As human will grew old so we must feel the pain in order to get what we want..Believe it, commit & u'll get it..Haha..~Peace~

Love You In Silence

You Came Into My Life
Quietly, Simply & Tenderly
The World Stood Still & I Could Not Say A Word
Nor A Single Gestured Showed
The Feeling Kept In My Heart
So I've Loved You In Silence
Worshipped You From A Distance &
I Dream Of You So Often
I Want To Say I Love You But I'm Afraid
Afraid That You'll Jus Take It For Granted

In Silence Then I'll Jus Love You
In Silence Then I'll Jus Find
The Fulfillment Of My Dreams

My Best Friend

She's Been There For Me When I'm Down
She Lighten Up My Life When My World Is Dark
She Sees What I See
She Sees Me Happy
She Sees Me Laughing
She Sees Me Sad
She Sees Me Crying

She's Not 5 Cents In My Wallet
But She's Priceless Treasure
I Treat Her As Air Cos Air Is Always There
I Love Her To Death Like She Loves Me Too
I'll Never Let Her Go & I Jus Wish She Knew

There's So Many Reasons
She's The Best But One Of Them Is
Cos I Love Her To Death

She's Not My Friend
She's Not My Pal
That Girl I Love So Much
Is Called MY BEST FRIEND

My Lucky Day^

I have to forget my sorrow from the day after today..It is the time for me to delete all the sadness from my mind as i know i'm on the right tracks now..Finally my good luck is back here with me..I suppose to wake up at 0700 today cos i'm on duty showroom but i cant get up that early although my alarm clock keep on ringing..Finally my colleague call me and woke me up at 0750 and i got shocked cos i suppose to reach office at 0830..I quickly took my shower and clean up my bloody face then went out..Well, luckily i got a smooth way to my office..When i reached office, my HOB was there but i'm escape from his punishment..I started to tell myself that i need to sign one unit of car today no matter how cos my bloody hell egg really hard to break off..I'm sitting on the round table nearby the main entrance and work very hard and keep my eyes on all the walk-in customers, service centre customer or even anyone that came into my showroom..Actually i felt very very sleepy but i still persist til the end in order to sign car..

Lunch time is coming and everyone is rushing to take their lunch while i'm still sitting at the same place waiting for "dead chicken" to come in..Well, i got a surprised from a malay lady..Actually the malay came here jus to collect roadtax and by the way she asked me bout the sentra price list..I thought she jus playing a fool on me and i was thinking want to ignore her but i cant broke my promise..So i jus attend her like normal..While i was explaining to her bout the car features, she made me feel like she will purchase a vehicle from me..At that moment, i know my luck is coming back and i'm almost on the right tracks..My luck is back and my self confidence is back too..What a coincidence?Haha..At last, she signed order with me..I really cant explain how was my feeling at that moment..Happy,excited or nervous?I dun even get the answer for myself and do u think u guys will know it?

All my colleagues congrat me included my HOB and admin department..They really felt happy for me cos finally i broke off the bloody hell egg..My target for this month is 4 units but i only left 2 weeks to go..What i can do is work hard to get more prospects and pray hard & harder..I'm still thinking is that what we called lucky?I'm so lucky, i'm a star..LOL..I wish myself will have a good day from today onwards..Thanks a lot guys..~Peace~

A Day of BAD LUCK

My gosh, i cant believe it that i had a real bad day..Everything i did went wrong and nothing went my way..Not everyday is a good day for me..I'm having a bad day today..This morning i got to rush to office due to late awake cos i had a meeting..While im driving and a car crashed my back out of sudden..Well i walked down with an anger face and take a look at my car bumper..Although it's not serious but my heart is broken with the scratches cos i treat my car as my lover..The stupid malay lady was very nervous and keep saying sorry to me..What the first thing appear in my mind was:"Should i straight away f**k her?Or should i talked nicely to her?"I was very very angry as i alr late for meeting..I tried to calm down myself cos i think she's the one who suppose to pay for the loss..At last, she agreed to pay for it..

I speeded back to my office and luckily not yet start meeting..I got a bad new from my boss saying that our company is going to cut down the number of employees due to recession..Haih..I felt a bit anxious cos my performance for the past 3 months were not so ideal..I knew my HOB will try his level best to protect his rice bowl yet still felt so worry..My HOB only has the authority to control my branch but not on the decision either to discharge or persuade to let sales advisors to stay..What he can do is gave all of us warning and asking us to perform good performance within these coming few months..Try to sign as many cars as we can, be punctual, be discipline and the most important thing is "we must do our parts"..My GM asked me when i'll broke off the bloody hell egg and i answered him sooner boss..At this strained moment, i told myself that i cant be like this anymore..I been sleeping for almost 3 months and it is the time for me to wake up and fight hardly to survive..I want to be the survivor cos i still want to enjoy in this wonderful world..I can see that my bright future is jus right in front of me and i need to work smart and harder to walk towards my final destination..Its not so hard to walk there but i only need sometimes to prove it to everyone that i can do it..I always bare in mind these supportive words:"Other ppl can do it, so do i?Im sure i can do it too"..Persevered til the end to achieve my goal..I knew that my self confidence alr came back slowly day by day and i jus need sometimes to built it become stronger than ever..My big boss always mentioned either u DO or DIE and i'm totally agreed with him now..I only got 2 choices either i want to survive or die..Every human will choose to survive rather than die so do i?When i have the will to fight, i received a call from my customers saying that he's not coming over my showroom today..I thought i can sign one unit of car yesterday but its made me feel disappointed..I alr get used to it with this kind of situation..Customers were lying as they alr promised to come on time..Well, i told myself that i'll make him purchase a car from me..I was really really down until i dun wish to stay in office anymore..So i follow my friend went out to release tension and pressure..Breathe the "good luck air"..Haha..

I did think of want to resign at that moment before the management discharge me but my colleagues not allowed me to do so cos they said we're a big family..They really take good care of me and they treat me like their sister..LOL..They keep on giving me fully support when they knew that i'm down due to some reasons..I feel so contented and happy although i'm staying alone over here..We're a happy big family..It is my pleasure to know u guys and work together..Thanks a lot guys..I know that i'll be in the right tracks sooner and i really believe that i can do better than last time..It's been a very long day and the clock is ticking so slow..With what this day offer, i'm sure my feeling is damn low now..But i wont let myself die so easily cos i want to be a smart survivor..

My Hard Day^

I couldnt think of what to write so i just sat on the bed & twiddled my thumbs..Tis is the first question that appear in my mind:"Have u ever had one of those days where u jus want to crawl into a cave or jus disappear?"I really despise these few weeks..On those days, absolutely nothing goes right no matter how hard i try, at last nothing works..Days like that are very frustrating for anyone & i know that there are other people out there that have worse days than i do..But for me, i lose hope kind of quickly & days that are so upsetting & disheartening and tear spent all the days with me..

I miss my mom very much when im facing hard time..She's my backer that can be fully trusted by myself..Im all alone and damn lonely in tis bloody house for almost 3 months..Everytime when i came home, i felt very bad as i dunno who i needed to talk to..U want me to talk to my lovely 2 sons(doggies)?I dun think they'll understand me but at least i will feel better..I had a lot of pressure and tension in my job, family, love relationship and the most important thing is my CAREER..Im currently working in car line as sales advisor but seems like luck didnt go my way these few months..I'll not get back what i really wish for no matter how hard i try, how hardwork i am & tis make me feel that hardworking is useless..Sometimes we may not get what we want even we're very hardworking if luck didnt go our way..I got no income at all these few months..All my friends and colleagues keep asking on me how did i survive without income?Well, i jus smiling and walk away cos i dun think that i need to answer their question as tis is my personal question..They always say that im a happy go lucky person but they will not understand what actually im thinking of..Normally i'll hide all my sadness and troublesome when im working cos i dun like to let anyone knows bout my sadness..I always keep on smiling even though im feeling hard..So my sadness wont be in my mom's heart & there's no way she will knows bout it..I kept all my sadness in my heart & i dunno when its going to explore..Sigh..Wat to do?We're human and im getting older and older from day to day..What ppl say, as human grow old and troubles will follow us wherever we go..I totally understand and agree with it now..

Talking bout my CAREER, i really wish that i can work in Emirates Airline cos it was my ambition since i was a kid..I feel like im totally realease from jail when i think of working in airlines..I believe in myself that i can do it and i really need to retrain my self confident..I cant imagine what will happen if my mom get to know that her daughter me will get the chance to work in Emirates Airline?Do i?World of sky @ Cabin Crew in Emirates Airline..I'll pray hard and harder..Some ppl say is quite hard to join Emirates Airline but some say very easy..So im jus standing in the middle will do..Im quite an independence person but sometimes i did feel very lonely cos im staying all alone now..I seldom hang out with my friends cos i dun think that i need so many friends..I need 1 or 2 intimate friends then will do..I ever involved myself in troublesome cos i always hang out with different gangs of friends..That will be a good good lessons for me..1 time is more than enough..My friendly, hyper active, talkative, kind god sister alr went back to her hometown a month ago..She ever stayed with me for few months and she will only bring happiness for me..When the time she was here with me, i always place my sadness and troublesome aside as she always talked funny things to me..I really appreciated her in my life..I never met someone like her before & may be its alr predeterminated..She will look for me when she's feel unhappy or sad..Sometimes i do scolded her cos she likes to hide her sadness and troublesome in her heart..Everytime i can feel that she unhappy cos our soul are sitting in the same boat..Dun feel GELI k..Haha..LOL..Me and her had quite a lot of funny and scary memories..She always support me to miss SOMEONE than the OTHER ONE..I think only her can understand what's that mean..She's the only one that stay beside me and fully support me when im lost..Im totally lost til i cant find the direction to exit..When my world is dark, she lighten up my world..I really wanna say thanks to her..

Love is not something that can just happen easily..It is something that has care and devotion in it..We need to know that when we're really in love, our heart will tell us..Sometimes i felt myself very useless and failure..Im a kind of passive person so i wont take action if nobody push my ass..I got no courage in love relationship..Im being woo by others from the beginning until now and i jus sitting there like waiting for durian to drop down from the trees..Feel funny?Sometimes im quite stupid..I ever fell in love with SOMEONE recently but i got no courage to approach her cos i really scare failure..Im a kind of person that must be number 1 and i cannot let myself lose..I also pay attention to my "face"..That is my bad personality that i need to delete it from my mind..Lastly, i decided to let go cos i heard a lot of news bout her and i dun think i still need to waste my golden time on her..May be this is the punishment from god cos i ever treat ppl real bad in my life..I will accept whatever god gonna do to me cos i believe in "retribution"..Its quite hurt cos that's my first time go after ppl..I alr failed in my first time and how am i going to try for the second times?But i believe time will cure my heart..Jus give me sometimes and im sure i can do it better..I surrender in love relationship cos i been hurt quite many times..They betrayed me (curi makan), talked bad bout me and etc..I swear that i didnt do anything that will hurt them and i alr try my level best to treat them good yet they still did that to me..I didnt feel sad cos i alr get used to it..I took few months time to cure my wound and i told myself that i wont easily get hurt by someone in next love relationship..Or may be i'll choose to stay single cos i never enjoy my single life before..I got to know that its not bad to stay single and its quite enjoyable..LOL..Or may be i'll try to find a nice guy..Who knows what will happen tmr right?Haha..

Time passing so fast day by day and i alr single for almost 3 months..I felt that single life not bad, jus that sometimes i'll feel lonely..Due to my independence life, i believe i can fly through all this hard times easily..I hope that all my sadness and troublesome will gone sooner..I'll stand til the end no matter how cos i know my mom love me so much and i cant make her feel disappointed on me..I always tell myself that "let the nature take it course"..I hope someone will know that im really going through a lot of struggles that im finding it difficult in staying strong but i'll never ever let myself down if i still able to stand it..I believe i can fly, i believe i can touch the sky..Be happy and stay cool always..Cheer..